Thursday, June 4, 2015

Still Learning


Acts 19:21-22

English Standard Version (ESV)

 

21 Now after these events Paul resolved in the Spirit to pass through Macedonia and Achaia and go to Jerusalem, saying, “After I have been there, I must also see Rome.” 22 And having sent into Macedonia two of his helpers, Timothy and Erastus, he himself stayed in Asia for a while.

One thing that I think Paul and I are alike in is the fact that sometimes I am v misunderstood or my intentions are misconstrued.  I think this happened often to Paul as well.  My husband tells me that it is because of my passion that people misunderstand what I am trying to say or trying to accomplish.  Paul definitely had a passion for the Lord and wanted others to know and understand of His loving grace.  He also wanted them to understand how to trust the Lord in all situations as Paul demonstrated time and time again.

Paul had a way with being joyful even in times of despair, something that I need to work on.  He set in his heart to go to Rome in Acts 19 :21 but it is not until Acts 28:14 that he actually arrives there after enduring as storm and being shipwrecked.  To top it off he did not go as a free man but as a man under house arrest.  Yet, Paul says and lives a life being thankful in all things. 

Paul recognized this life is a life of struggles and said to die would be gain but to live would be Christ in Philippians 1:21.  He knew that he was put here for a purpose and he was driven to fulfill that purpose.  I wonder what his prayers sounded like during those difficult times of his life.  Were they like mine?  I rather doubt it.  He had a sense of joy, peace and confidence because He knew the Father well.  He knew what he knew and he was willing to suffer all things because of it.

When struggles come my way I don’t look at them as Paul would have.  I rather start trying to figure out what I did wrong or how I could have done things differently for a different outcome.  I go back in my mind and wonder why I made decisions that I made.  I question myself, my worth, and fret about what I should do next.  I need to remember that God is in control, be joyful always, and do not worry but that is so difficult to do sometimes.  When this world tells us otherwise we need to cling to the Word of God, seek Him and know that He loves us just the way we are.  I’m still working on that and hope that someday I can say I have accomplished it.

Seeking Him with all my heart,
Sheila

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