Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Time Out


Psalm 6
English Standard Version (ESV)

Lord, Deliver My Life
To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments; according to (A)The Sheminith.[a] A Psalm of David.
Lord(B)rebuke me not in your anger,
    nor (
C)discipline me in your wrath.
Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing;
    (
D)heal me, O Lord(E)for my bones are troubled.
My (
F)soul also is greatly troubled.
    But you, O Lord(
G)how long?
Turn, O Lord, deliver my life;
    save me for the sake of your steadfast love.
For in (
H)death there is no remembrance of you;
    in Sheol who will give you praise?
I am (I)weary with my (J)moaning;
    every night I flood my bed with tears;
    I drench my couch with my weeping.
My (
K)eye wastes away because of grief;
    it grows weak because of all my foes.
8 (L)Depart from me, all you (M)workers of evil,
    for the Lord (
N)has heard the sound of my weeping.
The Lord has heard my (
O)plea;
    the Lord accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies shall be ashamed and greatly troubled;
    they shall (
P)turn back and be put to shame in a moment.

Depression, feeling sorry for yourself, bummed out there are many words and phrases that we could use to describe how David must have been feeling.  Sometimes I feel this way, I want to have a pity party for poor Sheila who seems to be struggling with being accepted by others.  Then I think of David and how he must have felt, after all he has been rejected by his own son and he was rejected by his best friend’s dad, King Saul.  He has to wait on the Lord and waiting isn’t any fun at all. 

David is asking the Lord not be angry with him, not to discipline him anymore but deliver him from his enemies.
Then, David recognizes who that enemy is, anyone who does evil.  He recognizes that the Lord has heard him cry all of those tears and he realizes that God will deliver him. 

Although his worries seem just a bit more magnified than mine, (no one is trying to physically kill me) I do feel that others are trying to diminish my dreams and ruin my life.  Then I realize that they don’t have any control of my life but that the Lord does.  He is watching out for me just like He was watching out for David.  There is nothing others can do to me that God does not allow to happen.  Then why does He allow things like this to happen you may ask?  I have no answer except that God is the One that can see the entire picture I can only see a glimpse of it. I realize that even though I want to live a perfect life and on the outside I may be doing a pretty good job, my thoughts are not always evidence of that.  And then there are times that my words are not evidence of that.  At that point I have to wonder if God is just disciplining me, I ask for forgiveness, yet hang on to the past, and then I ask, “How long am I going to be put in time out?”  How long will it take me to learn to trust Him?  I seem to think I am ready but again God sees the big picture He puts a challenge before me and I fail.  I fail because I let my disappointment turn into anger towards others rather than praise to my Father for watching out for me and back to time out I have to go.    The only way to get through times of trouble, disappointment, discouragement, etc. is to put your trust in Him and know that He hears your cries, He feels your pain, and He will bring you through it, just trust Him and keep seeking Him with all your heart.

Seeking Him with all my heart,

Sheila 

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