Wednesday, December 11, 2013

We All Struggle

Psalm 51
English Standard Version (ESV)
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David, when(A)Nathan the prophet went to him, after he had gone in to Bathsheba.
51 (B)Have mercy on me,[a] O God,
    according to your steadfast love;
according to your (C)abundant mercy
    (D)blot out my transgressions.
2 (E)Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
    and (F)cleanse me from my sin!
3 (G)For I know my transgressions,
    and my sin is ever before me.
4 (H)Against you, you only, have I sinned
    and done what is evil (I)in your sight,
(J)so that you may be justified in your words
    and blameless in your judgment.
Behold, (K)I was brought forth in iniquity,
    and in sin did my mother conceive me.
Behold, you delight in truth in (L)the inward being,
    and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.
Purge me (M)with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
    (N)wash me, and I shall be (O)whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
    (P)let the bones (Q)that you have broken rejoice.
9 (R)Hide your face from my sins,
    and (S)blot out all my iniquities.
10 (T)Create in me a (U)clean heart, O God,
    and (V)renew a right[b] spirit within me.
11 (W)Cast me not away from your presence,
    and take not (X)your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
    and uphold me with a willing spirit.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
    and sinners will (Y)return to you.
14 Deliver me from (Z)bloodguiltiness, O God,
    O (AA)God of my salvation,
    and (AB)my tongue will sing aloud of your(AC)righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
    and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 (AD)For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it;
    you will not be pleased with a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are (AE)a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
18 (AF)Do good to Zion in your good pleasure;
    (AG)build up the walls of Jerusalem;
19 then will you delight in (AH)right sacrifices,
    in burnt offerings and (AI)whole burnt offerings;
    then bulls will be offered on your altar.
                                                           
I could have split this up into section but just felt that it all belonged together so I decided to post all of Psalm 51.  I hope today that this is your prayer to our Lord and Savior.  I haven’t posted for quite some time and mostly because I needed to have discussions with the Lord on my own.  I have had some struggles lately, not bad in comparison to many many people in this world but life has not found me with a lot of joy in my heart. 
One thing is for sure, God knows our hearts.  He knows how to answer us when we call upon His name.  He is a God of comfort, a God of strength, a God of love and a God to be feared.  David knew that!  He knew that the only way he could be cleansed is through God Himself.  He was guilty of murder amongst other things yet He knew God would forgive Him but He also knew that He had to confess that sin to God.  His confession in this passage is not full of ritualism through blood sacrifices but rather David is asking for a cleansing from God Himself. In fact, in verses 16 and 17 he states that God does not delight in sacrifices that are done out of duty but rather He delights in a broken and contrite heart. David knew that he would be much more effective with others if he confesses and gets things worked out with God and once again feels the love of His Father God.  That is where I was and why I stopped writing. I felt pain and dissatisfaction and I still do to some degree but today I felt I needed to write.
I like David want to be blessed by God.  I want to know and accept each and every blessing that He gives me but sometimes I don’t recognize all of those blessings the way I should.  And frankly sometimes I am not sure they are a blessing and feel like it is more of a curse.  Life is hard for everyone at some time.  Those who think others “have it altogether” don’t really realize that we all struggle.  You can look at David and realize that!  You would have thought that God blessed Him so much and showed His power through him so well that David would never try to do anything on his own yet David did.  I believe he struggled with depression, lack of self-worth, and even fear.  He certainly felt rejection which is one of the hardest things for me to overcome.  He could feel sorry for himself at the drop of a hat and yet he was the young boy that faced a giant and won!  He was the king of Israel and was the family line that brought our Savior into this world.  So you see, we all struggle and that is why we need a Savior who is there waiting for us to come to Him.
Seek Him and know that He is GOOD!

Seeking Him with all my heart,
Sheila
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Psalm 51
English Standard Version (ESV)
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David, when(A)Nathan the prophet went to him, after he had gone in to Bathsheba.
51 (B)Have mercy on me,[a] O God,
    according to your steadfast love;
according to your (C)abundant mercy
    (D)blot out my transgressions.
2 (E)Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
    and (F)cleanse me from my sin!
3 (G)For I know my transgressions,
    and my sin is ever before me.
4 (H)Against you, you only, have I sinned
    and done what is evil (I)in your sight,
(J)so that you may be justified in your words
    and blameless in your judgment.
Behold, (K)I was brought forth in iniquity,
    and in sin did my mother conceive me.
Behold, you delight in truth in (L)the inward being,
    and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.
Purge me (M)with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
    (N)wash me, and I shall be (O)whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
    (P)let the bones (Q)that you have broken rejoice.
9 (R)Hide your face from my sins,
    and (S)blot out all my iniquities.
10 (T)Create in me a (U)clean heart, O God,
    and (V)renew a right[b] spirit within me.
11 (W)Cast me not away from your presence,
    and take not (X)your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
    and uphold me with a willing spirit.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
    and sinners will (Y)return to you.
14 Deliver me from (Z)bloodguiltiness, O God,
    O (AA)God of my salvation,
    and (AB)my tongue will sing aloud of your(AC)righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
    and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 (AD)For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it;
    you will not be pleased with a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are (AE)a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
18 (AF)Do good to Zion in your good pleasure;
    (AG)build up the walls of Jerusalem;
19 then will you delight in (AH)right sacrifices,
    in burnt offerings and (AI)whole burnt offerings;
    then bulls will be offered on your altar.
                                                           
I could have split this up into section but just felt that it all belonged together so I decided to post all of Psalm 51.  I hope today that this is your prayer to our Lord and Savior.  I haven’t posted for quite some time and mostly because I needed to have discussions with the Lord on my own.  I have had some struggles lately, not bad in comparison to many many people in this world but life has not found me with a lot of joy in my heart. 
One thing is for sure, God knows our hearts.  He knows how to answer us when we call upon His name.  He is a God of comfort, a God of strength, a God of love and a God to be feared.  David knew that!  He knew that the only way he could be cleansed is through God Himself.  He was guilty of murder amongst other things yet He knew God would forgive Him but He also knew that He had to confess that sin to God.  His confession in this passage is not full of ritualism through blood sacrifices but rather David is asking for a cleansing from God Himself. In fact, in verses 16 and 17 he states that God does not delight in sacrifices that are done out of duty but rather He delights in a broken and contrite heart. David knew that he would be much more effective with others if he confesses and gets things worked out with God and once again feels the love of His Father God.  That is where I was and why I stopped writing. I felt pain and dissatisfaction and I still do to some degree but today I felt I needed to write.

I like David want to be blessed by God.  I want to know and accept each and every blessing that He gives me but sometimes I don’t recognize all of those blessings the way I should.  And frankly sometimes I am not sure they are a blessing and feel like it is more of a curse.  Life is hard for everyone at some time.  Those who think others “have it altogether” don’t really realize that we all struggle.  You can look at David and realize that!  You would have thought that God blessed Him so much and showed His power through him so well that David would never try to do anything on his own yet David did.  I believe he struggled with depression, lack of self-worth, and even fear.  He certainly felt rejection which is one of the hardest things for me to overcome.  He could feel sorry for himself at the drop of a hat and yet he was the young boy that faced a giant and won!  He was the king of Israel and was the family line that brought our Savior into this world.  So you see, we all struggle and that is why we need a Savior who is there waiting for us to come to Him.

Seek Him and know that He is GOOD!

Seeking Him with all my heart,

Sheila 

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