I Cry Out, He Answers

Psalm 119:25-32

English Standard Version (ESV)

Daleth

25 

My soul clings to the dust;
    give me life according to your word!

26 

When I told of my ways, you answered me;
    teach me your statutes!

27 

Make me understand the way of your precepts,
    and I will meditate on your wondrous works.

28 

My soul melts away for sorrow;
    strengthen me according to your word!

29 

Put false ways far from me
    and graciously teach me your law!

30 

I have chosen the way of faithfulness;
    I set your rules before me.

31 

I cling to your testimonies, O Lord;
    let me not be put to shame!

32 

I will run in the way of your commandments
    when you enlarge my heart!

(http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+119%3A25-32&version=ESV)

Have you ever felt like your life ended?  Your soul is all but dead making your heart heavy.  I have been in and out of that state for the past three years.  I had hope that someday soon that things would change.  I’ve prayed and prayed about it and one of the prayers that  prayed is right here in this scripture.  I didn’t know of this scripture but it is here.  This is what has happened:

I’ve cried to the Lord my heartache and pain and He told me through scripture that if I love Him, I will feed His sheep.  So, I began this blog to do just that.  I have asked Him to help me understand His ways and He has guided me through scriptures as I wrote each blog.  Each time I’ve cried to Him in anguish I have read scripture that answered that cry.  Today is no exception.  I am probably hurting more than I ever had or it is the culmination of all the hurt that has come to an intense pain and this is the scripture passage for today.  No one would ever convince me that this is coincidence.  

I have chosen to be faithful and don’t think for a chance that I have not been tempted to not be.  I have set my eyes on the Father and I choose to trust Him but that doesn’t mean that there is not pain along the way.  

The last part, I have asked the Lord to enlarge my heart by giving me a compassion for those I have never felt compassion for.  Expanding my scope of those that  I may be able to help with His direction and guidance.  If I can’t have what I desire, give me a compassion and a new desire.

This has been a long hard journey with a lot of mountains to climb and the climb is  not over yet.  I choose though to accept His path, that He will lead me where I need to go and that He will take care of me.  I must continually pray that I will keep His commandments, keep the faith, and always trust Him in where He is leading me.  I so want to do that with a joyful, satisfied, and peaceful soul.

I hope that you too would seek Him with all your heart and that you will hear His voice through His Word.  May all of you too have enlarged hearts for the sake of Christ.

Seeking Him with all my heart,

Sheila